Still dreaming

I’ve not published anything on Photo Meditations for the last few months because I’ve been struggling with a bit of personal inertia.

I wouldn’t call it a creative block per se, as writing for me has always been pretty much non negotiable. But rather, it’s been a case of every time I come to publish something of my own here, I have this inner narrative telling me “This is ridiculous . . . what are you doing? . . . who are you speaking to? . . . what’s the point? . . . Vanitas Vanitatum, man . . . You don’t actually think anyone will care about this, do you?”

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Hence, I’ve got about twelve untitled articles in my drafts folder that are just entirely blank spaces - and a whole lot more that I may not even release as it feels like the time has passed now.

But with all that said, I don’t want to just fixate on my own faults and failings here. (After all, there are so many of them, I’d need an entire book to list them all!)

More importantly, I just want to use today as a chance to break my own silence again.

So, hopefully we’ll get back to a bit more of a regular output of prose, photos, art and all the rest soon. But for now, I want to share with you all a couple of photos from my first time out with the camera this year - and a prose piece which pretty much explains my mindset for when the rest of life seems a little dark or gloomy at times.

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Summer
Winter
Still dreaming

Rain or shine
Still dreaming

Up or down
Right or wrong
Good or bad;
No matter
Still dreaming

Night or day
Still dreaming

Success or failure
Still dreaming

Watching
Waiting
Hurting 
Healing
Living
Dying
You will find me

Still dreaming.

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